Gd Morning ppl ;D You SHOULD know what stories i'm going to update. Be Yourself Dayyyyyyyyy ahhhhhh ! hahaha. Well, Yesterday was cool ;D NON-of them wore sch uniform which make me like 'yay!' haha. Reach Sch around 7.00am and went up straight to class. Wait for them. I swear they look cute in those clothes. Took pictures all and Mr Yeo came to class. Which we told him to go to class and bring his laptop. So yeahhh, open the video and i swear it turns out well ! Gosh, thanks you ehs. I nearly cried but no, i dont want to cry on teachers day. Its a happy day. (like duh?) Anddddd, he go took the dvd. =.=' but its okayy. For you ;D heh. Oh yes, if you(classmate) want to keep one copy of the video, give me the cd/dvd and i'll burn for you. ;D Burn the video doesnt take so long. & its easy. (ceyy, mentang2 dah pandai. haha!) But i swear lah making the video is NOT easy. Try uhs. ;P

Anyways, i had super fun yesterdayyyyyyy. SWEAR. i love each and everyone of you ppl. ;D Pic up ! More pic on friendster wokeyyy ? heh. I've gtg. Will be updating again. But maybe after my N Level. (lama sia) I'm gonna have A SOLID 5hours STUDY EVERYDAY. Really. Concentrate bdhhhhhh. uhs. Oh yeah, Gd Luck to those ppl whose taking N Level and to my dearest classmate, GD LUCK, DO UR VERY BEST ;D You can do it. Just remember this 'Your the smarter class of NT students' andd we must show it to the teachers ! heh. Last thing, HAPPY FASTING ! ;DDDD

CHARACTER. ILY GUYS ;D



BF, ILY.


LAOGONG!



MAZZIE. ILYVM.


DEAREST ANDY.



XUEWEI.



ILOVETHIS ! CANDID.

Hello ! Heh, basically, i cant wait for tomorrow ! BE Yourself Day & Teacher's Day. Woooooweeeee ! Mine class is going to wear Geek Old Fashion Style. Different from other's. haha. i guess ? That's cool right ? Even thought some of them dont want to wear suspenders, at LEAST they wear 3/4 pants and white collar with ribbon. That's good enough. hehe. Gosh, i cant wait sial ! Might be fun ;D and i hope my VIDEO turns out to be well. *pray hard hard hard* If the video cant work, i will be crying and dissappointed siaaaaaa. (like duh) Its really difficult making the video. I try 3 times to burn inside the CD yesterday. (WTH) & its takes 4weeks to get the video done. (swear!) & i wasted $6++ just for the CD. WTH ? and thanks to dearest ANDY for giving me the CD (for free ah!) THANKS ! ILY ah boy ;D So yeahh. Pray for me people. hehe.

Ohhh yes, about the teacher's day present. We never bought those flowers and those nonsense or whatever. We made specially HANDMADE by us. hahaha. Seriously. Since this is our VERY LAST LAST YEAR with you ppl. We make it special. We made some Big Card & Photo Album. Its up to the teacher's to keep it or not but i think its a sweet memories. With all those wishes and OUR face. Its really cute. With those CD. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, i swear its really really really damn touching. & For Mr Yeo, i'm sorry if we gave you ONLY that Card because majority wants the photo album to gave Mr Jay. But dont worry. Althought its just a Card, its have alot of meaning. We will always remember you. With all those NAGGING ! hahaha. Realllyy ! ;D Okayy enough. i've talk ALOT siol. ahahha. Update tomorrow with PICTURESSSSSSS ! YAYYYYYYY ! ;DDDD

PS: Mine N Level is just 6days left, and i've started my revision VERY WELL. Cool or what ? i mean, not VERY WELL. (get what i mean?)

Welloo ! Fuyooooooooooo, today whether is so great. Super Great. You should see what i'm wearing now. Jacket+Jacket+Shirt+Shirt ? Okay, i know its crazy but i like. haha. & my room is soo COLD. Due to my air-con. I switch on my air-con. [giler peh warda kan?] haha, its my habits. [ceyyceyy, habits per sia] Anyways, i'm freezing but my hands doesn't want to switch off my air-con. Wait till mum's know and i get some gooooddd nagging for the whole dayyyyyyy ~ ! Weeeeeee. [beh suker ah gitu?] ;pp

Basically, 9 More Days to go, till my N Level. Fast siol. *praying hard* Kinda scared, well who dont ? heh. Will be getting Prelim's result this week. I HOPE i pass. Uhh-ohh, well, i pass my MT. A lahhh oi ! haha. But i dont care whats on my prelim's result. I care abt my N LEVEL result. So prelim's is like ? WHatever kay ? ehh no, its important too, but N Level is MORE important. So, delete the word 'whatever' ;DD

Guys, Guys, Guys. No more guys PLEASE ? 100% NOT INTERESTED. Thank You. Enough of those heartbreaking NEWS. I dont wish to fall in love AGAIN. I mean, NOT NOW. Wait wait, let me make the sentence correct. I wish to fall in love but not now ? Got it ? Yeahhh. Too many guys break my heart which is like WHATEVER. Too much hopes to you GUYS is not a good thing. So, basically, i've learnt one thing ! Uhhh-ohhh, damn. I accept friends ONLY. But not more then that. Sorry to those guys whom i rejected. Well, i hate STMF. OKAY ? ;DD Basically, i just in love with my bestfriends. Read the last post. So now, they are my everything. Those 5 Favourite ppl are the ones i ONLY LOVE. okayy ? ;DD

Oh look, its 5.00pm, i'm going to packed my sch stuffs, and wanna catch up on my studies. I mean, my revision. haha. Soo yeah, happy readings ppl. Mushi-Mushi algotia ;D BYE. *blowing kisses* haha !

Hello, Wassup thereeee ? Wooohooooweeee ;D Guess what ? I've been hyper this few days in school. I dont know why ? Suppose to CONCENTRATE on my studies BUT instead when Mrs Sentil is teaching, Saedah, Saiful, Farhan, Hakim, Jazli and Me were buzy talking abt those Oct Chalet. And well, talks craps as per normal since Saiful was sitting beside me. Like alwaysss. That Crazy, Gundu, Handsome(mcm phm) bestfriend of mine. hahaha ! Ooopss :/ Dont worry he wont read my blog. But if he read, CONFIRM + CHOP he will basically hug me+beat me. hahaa. Crazy lah.

*looks up* See, how cute he is ? HAHAH ! Cute per siaa ? Ohmeegeee. Well, since i'm so bored let me describe him. Amacam ? haha. Okayy, he's one of my bestfriend. I mean, i've only got 2 bestfriend which is, Maz, Saiful. I will describe Maz later. So dont worry ;P Basically, Saiful is really a nice GUY. SERIOUSLY. If i'm nt the same class as him, probaly, i'm attached wif him. HAHAHA ! Siol lahh. ehh, i'm just kidding on that part. SWEAR 100% ;D So yeah, like i say, he such a nice guy. He loves to make me laugh. Saiful, i'm gonna miss your jokes if we are in different sch in ITE. That's make me sad. (duhh?) He's the one who brighten up my day. I'm so great-ful to have such bestfriend. He can be irritating ! haha, but that's doesnt matter to me. As long as i know he love me and i love him (ceyyceyy) But true lahh, i love him ;DD Woohooo, ppl might be jealous abt our relationship. (friendship) SERIOUS. Ppl did jealous abt me and him who always together, makes jokes together, laugh together. AND guess what ? I even TOUCH HIS nose shit (which i know its very disgusting) but yeaa ? He told me to touch it ! haha. Damn gundu lahh. haha, okayy lah enough lah okayy ? Later ppl would think i love him, well i did love him as my BESTFRIEND ;DDDD






*looks up again* Awwwwwww, see how sweet those two girls is ? haha ! Okayy ah, if i'm not sweet so whatt ? Maz is my supersupersuper bestfriend. We knows OUR secret together. Seriously. I even know abt *youknowiknow* basically, too much secrets we share together. I treat her like my sister (big sister) since her birthday came first then me. So yah, i'm younger that her. Which is cool. haha ! I love her very muchh. & i hope, we will be BESTFRIEND till we married (sial lah, dah ingat pasal kahwin sia) haha. But seriouly lahh. ;DD

And the rest which is, SAEDAH, DULA, ANDY is one of my close friends. 5 Most Favourite ppl in my heart. (sweet takk? haha) Sooo yahhh, till here beybehh. I just notice that my hand (not finger) started the pain. & i wanna Continue on my teacher's day video. Ohh, SWEEEEEETTT ;D hehe. take care ah ppl. Chows.

Tadaaaaaaaaaaa(: Hello ! Hehhh, okayy now i'm buzy doing videos. Awwwwww, i watch it over and over again and its seems really really sweets ! Really. I feel like crying. I wonder how they watch the video on teacher's day. See who will cry ! hahaha ! Okayy, i think i'm the first one to cry. haha. Really ;DD

Anyways, Monday was SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ! Right after school, i went back home change and went out. Went out to studies at Republic Poly. Maz and me came first. Waited for dula, saedah, mira, farhan, andy, fad, saiful and poh seng. There are like super longggggg. Wah lauu. hah. Waited and waited and then they came, we ate first since saedah and dula is hungry. So yeahhhh. Search for a place to study and we study for like 15minutes ? Reallyyy ! hahaha, the rest of the time, we went around taking pictures, recording teachers day video message, discuss for chalet and BYD. Mann, i have so much fun with them ;D They pictures that we took is superrr COOL. Ohh i love them so muchh ;D

At around 7+ we packed-up and went back home together. Okayy this part is the BEST. haha. Okayy, NO. LOL. I walked with mazlina. We are like for the back. The rest are in the front. So there's this part where maz say;

Maz: 'Warda, i'm scared'
Me: 'No lahh, nothing lahh, come we go to the front'

As soon as i said that, i went to join the rest who are in the front. I never realise that maz was not following me. As soon as we reach the bustop ( basically near to maz house) maz started crying. I was so shocked and dont know what happen ? She told us that she saw 'SOMETHING' and was following her back. So we thought of sending her back home since we are near form her house. I was so scared (as you know, i did saw the 'SOMETHING' last time in june. All of my classmate know it because we are having a pit at east coast chalet) I went to dula. Maz keep crying. Mira was holding her.

Reach under Maz blk and suppose saiful and mira ONLY going to send her upstairs but i pity them. So me and dula follow while the rest stay. In the lift, i was facing Maz, i talk to her. I did say what happen and suddenly, she stare at me. i was totally BLANK AND SCARED and i SHOUTED ! SERIOUS !!! I shout and went to dula. I was holding dula hand since i was so scared. She was staring at me DEEPLY. Life door oper, i ran out. Mira and Saiful pull her. But then she kept crying and dont wanna move. I dont know what to do and knocked at Maz house to call her parents. Then we went back home. Thanks to Saiful for sending me back home cause they scared it might follow me (like i say, i did have this exprience in june, this year) Reach home, Mazlina sister called me at she told me that, she has been RASUK (i forget what's the word in english) So yeah, i was shocked lahh. Like duh. ahha. And so on and on and on and on and on. Okayy done ! haha. Seriously, i'm lazy to type. Just a rewind stories. haha.

My hands are pain. So i guess i'll stop here. I'm going to continue doing those teachers day video for classmate. hehe. Take Care, CHOWWWSSS. BYEEE ! ;D

Hello MYHONEYMUDPIE. Gosh, its been long time since i wrote that word. I mean type ? heh. Today is such a slow day. Seriously. Damn. Wossshoo, Wossshoo. I love rain(: Anyways, Today was so uneventful that it was ridiculous. I woke up at five. I took out my EOA book. I read until about six. Then I slept until ten-thirty. Now I am on the chatting with Reena, laughing hysterically. So, i dont know why i suddenly woke up ? Like woah ? uhhss =.='

Hopefully tomorrow will end up being a good day. I'm hoping to find something exciting to do. Wait, NO ! Eventually, we are going to check our Prelims Paper. WOAHH ! Right now I feel so groggy. I dont know whyy.

Edit: I don't want to lie anymore. I am angry at the world. As strong as I pretend to be, I'm not. I've been angry for a long time. I've been bitter and irritated and frustrated and every other related feeling for so long that it's close to impossible to identify it's root. I don't want to be alone anymore. There has to be more than this. Sometimes I swear I'd be with you if it wasn't so forbidden. Maybe it would have worked if it hadn't been forbidden all along. It is though. I don't even know if that's what I really want. I guess I am just lonely and confused, and I love the way you know who I am more so than anyone else in the world. The only thing I want at this point is to have someone to talk to late at night when I want to talk. I want someone who thinks of me first. I want someone to just cuddle with when I'm in that mood. I want people in my life to know when something is wrong without me having to say something to let them know, and people in my life who see more than their own problems. I feel like I've been screaming since last week, without anyone looking up. I'm not trying to pull this self pity ordeal. This is just the only place I write anymore,and the only place I can get out my frustrations. I almost feel like I am being punished. Like I had everything in the world once in my life. I have never been alone, ever before this extended period of time. Now I feel like everyone is in love but me and everyone seems to be so happy. It's not that I'm not happy for them. I just don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to feel empty anymore. I just want to belong somewhere.

When you sail across the ocean waters,
And you reach the other side safely,
Could you smile a little smile for me?
'Cause I'll be thinkin' about you

Holas all My Senoritas ! Whatss uppp ? Hehh. Oh yes to tell you the truth, I hate having problems with people. But maybe they should stop giving me problems ? I don't know if I'm making any sense. But seriously. Just stop the nonsense. What you have said to me is completely nonsensical and it doesnt make any sense. Anyways, i'm NOT INTERESTED in you so i hope you can understand/understood what i've said to you. Please, get out of my beautiful life. Your not oh-so-invited to enter my life. You make my life destroyyyy siol ! So yahh, remember that. Thanks you very much for the understand/understood Mr K. If you still bothers me, i'll take a gun and i'll SHOT you. I dont care. But of coz, a water gun ? HAHA. Kay lame. Naaaaahh, that part i'm kidding. So please MR K, i dont wanna be your gf. So what ? 'I'LL CHARGE YOU' Woahhhh ? Scared per siol ? uhh =.=

Muskat 15908 Inc: u know what my rank
Muskat 15908 Inc: lance coporal
WARDA - L: haha, soo ?
WARDA - L: i dont care what ur rank is lahh
Muskat 15908 Inc: i no more private
WARDA - L: SOOO ?
Muskat 15908 Inc: so u be my gal
Muskat 15908 Inc: thats e end
WARDA - L: i dont want
WARDA - L: FULLSTOP
Muskat 15908 Inc: u lucky i in civilian nt in uniform
Muskat 15908 Inc: if not i charge u
WARDA - L: charge me ?
WARDA - L: for what ?
WARDA - L: for not being your gal ?
WARDA - L: stupid lame thing, go fuck off cb !

Pathetic.One word to discribe me. I don't know what's wrong with me nowdays.Easily give in to things which were'nt supposed to. Shitt.

Sleepy.I can't say that I dont get enough sleep.I mean I do sleep in the afternoons after school. Whenever I'm having the mood to study and complete every single piece of my assignment; I would suddenly doze off.Shitt. but this cannot go on. i must use the time carefully.

Bored. At home is such a bored. but no matter what must Concentrate on my studies.

Fustrated. Prelims & N Levels. Woahhh ??? Have i prepared for N Levels ? IDK ! Damn shit. What should i do ? Study ? Okay can, but not too late huh ? kay nvm. STUDY AH ! Anyways, my Face 1 prelim exam has just ended. Well, lets prepared for my Face 1N Level. Jia yooo ?

*looks up* Ohh i miss the old you. Idk where the hell have you been. I cant deny that i miss you. My dearest PAKCIK ;D I miss those msg, talking on the phone and more lahhhh ^-^ Ohhhh, damnnn lah siol. Although we are just FRIENDS right ? Haiyahh. Woshoss, woshoss. Not that i'm crazy over this person okay ? Its just that i felt happy whenever i message him. I mean around him ? errr :/ But now ? Uhh whatt ? i miss you lah PAKCIK ;D That's all I have to say. IT IS SO HARD TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT. About several things. heh. :/ KAY, BYE ! ;D

Hello ;D Okayy, good news. haha. I bought new handphone. YAY ! Its been long long long long time since i want a new phone. & at last, i got it. I bought Sony Ericsson W980. I wanna buy cyber-shot c950 but dont have ? Fuck ? But nvm. They said its a good phone thought. So yahh.

Going to cut my fringe soon. Bangs AGAINN. My fringe grow very fast. Oh well, hah. Okay YAH, my right neck is really painful due to this 'thing', i dont know whats the 'thing'. Yesterday went to my uncle house, asked him to massage. PAINFUL i can say. I cant even move when i'm sleeping. & worst, my throat is killing me ! Sore throat ? Ahhh, hard to eat. haishh. But nvm. Hope i recover soon. *Pray* GTG ? BYE ;D

Ps: I'm sorry if this is a nonsence post, because idk what to say ? (might as well dont post right)

Hello. Check date ; its like been 1234567890 days since i last update. Wahhhh. I know my blog is dead right now. So, i'm trying to update now. Hmmm, where to started ehs ? Okayy.

Regarding my late grandmother, after all the suffer, its better that you're passed away. Seeing you suffer makes me suffer too. *ALL of us suffer. REALLY. All those injection, all those scary stuffs, all those pain. But of coz, whenever i think about her, i would cry. She the best grandmother in the world. She really help me alot. I missed all those talks with you. I missed eating with you. I missed going to market with you. I missed all those moments with you ! Before i cry, i would end here. Rest in peace nenek. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.

Sch was hell. Been studying. Remember those words for my late grandmother 'Study hard warda' & i'm sure i would study hard. That's a promise. Insyaallah. ;D CPA prelim just over. I'm glad that i can do it. Yeahh, but our sch prelims just started. Like - OMG ? Others sch has finished ? Mann, nvm then.


LoL, okay so. i've got nothing to say, anyways, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY ;D